When it comes to relationships, I must confess I par pretty well. The folks — check; the boyfriend — check; the friends — check check. When it comes to weight however, well… let’s just say weight and I have what we would call a “unhealthy” relationship. I’ve yo-yo’ed myself from a size 16 to 12, 14 to 10, and now a 12 to 14 (although I plan to deny this wholeheartedly to the rest of the world), that I’m not sure even the most dysfunctional of relationships can keep up! But, here I am, 25 lbs heavier than I’d like to be and ready to make the necessary changes to keep it off.
In the most recent round of weight loss, comparatively referred to as the “honeymoon stage,” I lost about 20 lbs. Perhaps this would have stayed off as I had intended had I not been losing it to spite my ex. Between then and now, that being 2 years later, I put the weight back on — this I’m liking to blame on being overly ecstatic with the new flame. Well, that and you know, making all those poor eating, drinking, and sitting-on-the-couch-over-going-to-the-gym choices. To-MAE-to, to-MAH-to. But, let me offer you this: Although vengeance may help propel you to the gym, it doesn’t serve the greater good — that being the overall health of yourself, or in this case me!
The biggest hurdle I currently have to face is my own reflection. I’m so upset that I put the weight back on that I had worked so hard to take off in the past. I slip on my pants, feeling much too tight, and literally fight back the urge to cry. It’s truly hard not to compare to the past and I’m having a had time accepting things as they are right now. And, so I’m going at it again! This time, however, I’ll be doing it for me. Let’s keep those fingers crossed (and toes, eyes, legs, pretty much anything you can cross will be helpful). Cheers!